Tired

I'm tired. I don't know why. I just feel so listless. My lessons are so far apart. and few in a day. why do i feel tired? DOn't feel like talking, don't feel like meeting with anyone, just want to retreat into my room n indulge in solitary. I like being alone too much sometimes it scares me. It really does not bother me if i don't hold a conversation with anyone for days... there is absolutely no reason why i should be tired.

Relief- Pure and Sweet

I've finally handed in my forms. The SEP lady, which was how I thought of the person in charge of the student exchange, has turned out to look not like a mature, self assured lady in her thirties, with a smile. In her place is a sullen looking girl who barely looks 23 assuming the style of an ah lian chiongster(although I really do not know how one looks like!). In the process of checking my forms, she uttered only 8 words. 'SEP?', 'estimated graduation day?', 'no'. 'we'll sign it'. Indeed, a lady of few words.

All that is left for me to do this weekend are a pile of readings left over from last week together with this week's readings. Presentation on Monday about Representation is the next urgent assignment to complete and I am a little apprehensive to how I am going to deliver my part to 50 strangers. Will think about it when time comes. Had my much needed nap, feeling somewhat refreshed although I am feeling like I am missing out on something coz I am not out with the rest. Sat appraoches and the much needed bout of exercise beckons.

NEED TO FINISH MY READINGS!!! I can't believe i'm behind already. No time to think no time to contemplate no time to indulge in the confusion that circles around me.

Anne is a happy girl

Anne has realised that whenever a problem arises for her, making her worried that there would be no way out, something or someone comes along and magically clears a path for her.

Take today for instance, having slept at 3 and waking up at 8, Anne very groggily surfed the net to map her modules for SEP. She realised- to her horror- that many of the modules listed in the 'Courses' pages of the universities would most probably NOT be offered in the quarter that she is going for SEP. The worry bug nagged at her. She was upset that she had met with yet ANOTHER setback in her quest to go on exchange.

Then in her meeting with Dr HCL, the SEP coordinator for EL, she DISCOVERED that any module she wanted to do was ABSOLUTELY FINE with Dr Ho, even modules that are not taught in NUS was fine... HE HAD THE POWER to grant her a dummy course no. Thus Anne has concluded that he possesses an enlightened mind, and is marvellously talented for the beautiful oil paintings displayed in his office are his.

Thus Anne ends with what she started ... Anne is a happy girl.

Its not so bad... the silver lining

Why isn't it that BAD?

1.Davis is nearer to San Francisco!

2.I can do 4 modules instead of 3 which i thought was the limit. ie no need to overload for 2 sems... which wld mean i wld HAVE to do hons...which i might not be doing

3.Accommadation: The IRO IS supposed to help me with it aren't they? They wouldn't leave me homeless for 2.5 months would they?

4.Just as long as I can find a place to deposit my luggage, I can go earlier and TRAVEL!!!!... there is a problem with finding travel companions though.

So it isn't as insurmountable as it seemed previously...

SOmeone tell Anne she is very stupid

Anne will tell you what she did

Anne happily put Uni of California Irvine as her FIRST choice for SEP (aside:&#(%&($)

Anne got ACCEPTED into Irvine

Anne now wants to CHANGE the place she is going to

BECAUSE...

Anne realised that

1) She would have to find off-campus accommadation

2) She would only be away for 2 months while others will be away for 4

3) She wouldn't have time to travel

4) She has to overload for the next 2 Sems!

Now Anne is supremely and majorly pissed with herself for making such a great fiasco out of such a fantastic opportunity. Anne was, and is happy that the people at the IRO like her personal statement, face and grades well enough to accept her but Anne is ungrateful enough to request for a change in uni... What is wrong with Anne? Why can't Anne be a)meticulous b)meticulous c)meticulous?

Anne is going to stay angry at herself

Monday

A new day A new beginning

January... A New Start...AGAIN

New Year Resolutions 2005

1.Be Focused. Get a 4.0 CAP (average of a B+)

2.Exercise

3.Do better Friendship Maintenence

4.Find a tuition kid

5.Read better books

6.Find time to do Pt 5

7.Be a better person

The Dec of 2004

Been back for a while ... 7 days to be exact. Things seem to be the same, yet, things seem to have changed. Hadn't had the urge to blog till now and have not updated myself by reading the blogs of others. Somehow, after last sem's experience with nightmarish project mates, I don't seem as anxious to start school. Perhaps the boredom has not set in yet. For whatever reason, I don't feel prepared for the new term.

Dec 04 is bundled full of memories, some which will inevitably fade in time. None however, which i will ever regret creating. There was Cambodia.Phnom Penh, Sihanokville, Siem Reap. Where I made good friends, touched large spiders, ate crickets, flicked beetles and frogs away nonchalantly. Where I slept in a sleeping bag for approx 2 weeks n in rather pleasant hotel rooms for the rest of the time.Where I saw numerous sunrises and sunsets and noted that every one of them were unique, similar only in the reverence we treated them with. Where bouts of laughter flowed due to the antics of certain YEP members. Where so many pple kept falling sick which was damn worrying. Where we had so much fun during construction, cooking, n interacting w the local kids.

Thailand...where i spent 4 days in with my family. Shopping, Eating loads of food, simply walking and talking.

Of coz, the Tsunami occurred in Dec... Disaster, Death, Destruction.

Not a Dec I am likely to forget