Have to complete
morpho syntax project by thu
philo detailed outline by thu
Media project by fri
philo essay by sun
internet project by sun
GEM paper 55% by next fri
Morpho syntax by next fri
have grp meeting on sun
GEM quiz on 8/4

Where do I find time to understand my Morpho syntax? Media? Intenet? Philo? IN 2 WEEKS? The examiniation is just one big fucking farce.

Think i have reached the stage where i don't really give a damn abt the quality of my papers/projects. All i worry about is how i am going to produce A paper. any paper. oh! fuck it.I'm damn pissed with myself. my inadequacies, my ineptitude, my ignorance, my inability to control my life, my lack of discipline. I am just plain pissed.

Happy Day!!

Had a great time today with the gals. caught ' A moment to remember' this korean show that was contained cheesy line and cliches. yet it managed somehow to make me cry so bad. i guess its the 'you are the love of my life and i will love you forever, for better or for worst thru thick and thin and never forsake you'msg.
and the tallness n intensity o the male lead. not that cute. but CHARMING. long eyelashes, floppy messy hair, great toned body. *grinz* You know how usually the CONFLICT in shows are internal, between the couple themselves? well this one was different in that the couple was PERFECT, in accord with each other, they complemented each other so well, had equal balance of giving and taking. This time, CONFLICT was external in the shape of Alzeimer's disease. (excuse the spelling)
i hear snickers from those who have not watched the show. but somehow the poignancy of how they coped with it n the message of undying love managed to save the entire show n made it immensely enjoyable for suckers of romance. I'm one of those.

TOgether with Liting n Alice, met up with Eugene, Tze Shien and Jude. It was good just to sit and do nothing cept talk about subjects that didn't have anything to do with my projects n sch work. Yes that ate into my reading time for my projects, but I nevertheless feel it was worth it coz i feel so much better mentally.

I honestly never realised how MUCH i miss my friends till I saw all of them at subway cine. Even on the bus journey, I was still thinking of my morpho syntax, but once i got there, i started smiling n got really cheerful. They really do make my day. Well, all good things wld have to come to an end... so this day ends with a smile on my face, which hopefully wld still b there n sustain me thru the rest of this week which is now tightly scheduled for projects n papers.

QIuyi! send me the pictures ok??? thru msn coz i want it the actual size. Thanks

TIREDDD

i've never worked as hard as i have this sem ... and yet. I have NOTHInG to show for this diligence. NOTHING at all. WHY? exhuasted. a little dispirited... feeling the wave of panic rising up, ready to hit ... HARD. I really don't know my work. Itz not some psuedo imitative pretence here. I really don't know what I have been learning. Shit i have to do 2 more blog post for philo. i keep forgetting. yeah back to work. Apologies to friends whom I have neglected due to this torturous workload. Hey everyone, thanks for being so nice n supportive during my HELL week ya? Oh yes... i know many o u are also damn busy also... so muz remember to take care ok? luvya!

F***

yeah. itz the horrendous four letter F word. apparently itz the most vulgar of all.


FAIL/v
> to be unsuccessful in something you want to do.


Failed driving test. accummulated a record 50 pts. honestly, yes brooded over it for some time... time i ended till i got home... but thanks to brilliant friends and family who allowed me to whine to them incessantly through SMS n conversation... gotten over this smudge on my driving record. Yep! just going to book more lessons. next test date. yeah. award winners of the day goes to Kuanlin (who brought me cheer up chocs!);Liting;Qiuyi;, Roy (who said he had 46 pts first time round which made me feel a tad better*grinz*) n the coincidental blk supper which supplied me with comfort food-KFC!!! n root beer. Time to start work. WAY WAY behind. Starting a new leaf here... yes my resolution. 'mai kancheong' . Might b the tortoise who plodded along while the hare ran forward... but hopefully i reach the finishing line with something to show for. Isn't it funny that the one thing that would make my life so much brighter is a 4.0 CAP? I mean, in a way, its really sad. so narrow minded. but i guess to me, it is simply an embodiment, an affirmation of effort, a reflection on the type of person I am. rather, that i want to be. Find it quite fortunate that I have found quite a few friends in NUS who understand exactly why i want it.I mean, if they hear a bad result, they dun brush it off, they dun comfort much, they just say very matter of factly... that more work has to be put in. It is refreshing.

Word of the day

SPIFFY!!!