Sunday, October 30, 2005

Just went to a football game. UCD vs Cal Poly. AND WE WON!!! apparently neither sch has won on home ground since forever and this was... Sweet Victory! 20 to 13. Spent the first quarter of the game in confusion and somewhat boredom. what the hell was going on? Good thing, Erin, friend from hall, explained the whole thing to me. Spent the next 3 quarters cheering, trying my best to catch freebies, getting half my face fried by the sun and generally actually watching guys fall on each other.

itz damn funny, the americans, they like to diss their oppoonents... Cal Poly is this state uni that has a reputed engineering fac and agriculture course, same as UCD. So when students apply to unis, they would apply to both. and of coz each sch would think they are the best right? lol. UCD students had this banner made which said 'You will work for us'... and then they would zealously chant 'UCD rejects'between cheers.... and they openly boo their rivals. Hilarious really.

had loads of fun and a ride back which made it all the more better! lol. now i really appreciate S'pore's transportation system. Oh and i had free hotdogs, drinks, chips,t-shirt and ticket to watch the game. =) wonderful really

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Raindrops are...

FALLING ON MY HEAD!! YES, the first sight of rain, heralding the approaching winter has arrived. It drizzled. And it reminded me of what Liyi n Qiuyi told me abt Seattle. It drizzles and no one uses umbrellas- just coats with hoods. It's getting cold.

Told my housemate and she was totally fine with the fact that i wasn't coming. Felt really bad though. Will take Liting's suggestions and buy wine for them. Got so excited that when my friends msg me and asked me to catch a movie, I immediately agreed. 9.30 i was invited, 9.35 i agreed 9.45 i was picked up (and 2 others after me) and at 10 we reached the Theatre. This is how small Davis is with a car.

The trip to Seattle seems to be fraught with difficulties. I have missed 2 chances to book my ticket. First through my own indecisiveness and then due to the lack of printer. I thought I needed to print out the confirmation letter (coz i had to do that while booking with Tigerair) but actually I don't (according to Roomie who booked her Las Vegas tickets) then 7 hours later, the tickets for 7.25 pm was sold out. I should have reserved it yesterday but i didn't know there was such an option till today. I can only get the flight on sunday morning, meaning that i would need to get back from vancouver by Saturday night. THis isn't how they planned it and the thing is that I am joining other people so i really cannot expect them to change their whole itinery for me. Got very upset by the turn of events and msged Liyi, they'll be trying to sort out the timing and stuff today. If it isn't compatible. then the seattle trip is off and I guess I'll make alternative plans to go down to San Francisco or something, although I really would prefer going to Seattle. I guess only time will tell. *cross fingers*

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

An observation: Americans love to do the crossword puzzles found in newspapers.

Singaporean mentality: Waste time... nothing better to ah? got time, read textbook... do what crozz word puzzle? lol. ok itz just my own interpretation.

Friend told me yesteday, I sounded like the angry little asian girl. DO I??
check out http://angrylittlegirls.com and http://www.netbroadcaster.com/new/shorts/indie3.html. The links are not working so... just cut and paste ok? Note that there are vulgarities. sometimes the link doesn't work. sometimes it does. itz strange. Some of the other clips are damn hiliarious but others are just plain mean and not on bit funny. *shrug* who said the world was perfect
i just screwed up my spanish test. 72%. highest 94.5%. lowest 59%. I SUCK.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Going to Seattle. I might just go down to Seattle during Thanksgiving. Isn't that awfully exciting? I feel as though money doesn't seem to matter to me here, i just spend what i want. THAT makes me feel so guilty.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Are people actually aware of what they are writing? Sometimes people say the most 'duh' things, which frustrates me to no ends. While checking out a dating site for one of my projects, these are what I came across:

"Hi, I am looking for friends, esp decent ones." (my bold)what other kinds would you actually be looking for? people who might lie and backstab u?

"well...of cos im looking for my prince who comes from a decent background" well...of coz...

"Basically I am a simple girl who enjoys good companion. Cheers.." and then..."Hmmm... Committed? Very important. The rest is up to fate. Cheers..."

"i am a god listener too!!!!" (this is just a typo but itz funny!)

"v tempermental person needs a lot attention at times n cant give alot of time. in short jus difficult person... haa"
and you were attempting to attract...WHO?

"Some say a Unicorn is magical.
Some say a Unicorn is beautiful.
Some say a Unicorn is a lonely soul looking for companionship.
If a unicorn is what you're looking for, then come look for me."


Sometimes, mistakes (i'm sure itz one from the context) made are detrimental to your chances of getting a date... "Looking for sincere friendship or relationship looking for witty intelligent gays"

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Had a normal day today, but somehow, the mood was different. I was happier, comfortable with myself and my thoughts. Called Mom before Spanish class to speak to her- she's leaving for China on Sun. but she wasn't home. Talked to my bro though. I miss him so much! my sis also. did i ever tell any of u guys that when i spoke to my sis the last time(it was barely one paragraph worth of words) i felt so homesick i almost cried? She does this sorta things to me. I don't need to talk to her much or tell her much, hell, I dun even turn to her for comfort when I am sad. Yet, she's the one who elicits the strongest feelings in me. Maybe coz i respect her so much. he was so surprised that I actually told my roommate about her... gas... and i was left wondering about it. Should I have said it? was it impolite? I dunno. He was astounded really. lol he asked me how i said it. crazy guy.

Spanish class was as usual incomprehensible, yet I enjoyed it. Went for my Anthro Ling discussion which honestly is a total waste of time becoz we do not do anything stimulating, however it does give me 10% of my grade... so y not? had lunch at the Segundo dining commons* and it was almost like an excursion, taking a tour round the large variety of food present and then choosing just want you want to eat. Had mexican and mongolian food. And although they sound exotic, mongolian noodles is simply stir fried noodles with large clumsy chunks of chicken in it. The Mexican chicken wrap was so good that I went back for a second and had to QUEUE up for it coz by then, everyone knew what was good. Gave in to this urge to have dessert and ate chocolate mousse which was sinfully delicious and a small tiny but absolutely, potently sweet pineapple pastry. YUM! On my way out, I met Ray who was riding his bike towards the dining commons too and he asked me jokingly, " what are you doing here?" by which i retorted "y shouldn't I be here?" and he said the first word that I bet no one around us understood "coz you should be in ur ulu dining commons" which sounded mean to me!!! *hrumph* lol then he sailed past me. Basket I wish I had a bike. I really do. Just that I really do not see myself going through all the hassle of selling it and all. Had dining alone at the Oxford DC which is smaller than the Segundo one, but still twice the size of Castilian's which is where I live. Castilian DC closes from fri night to Sun afternoon=inconvenience for me. Then, I headed downtown for some jazz music which was supposed to be playing at the open space next to baskin Robbins ALAS, it turned out to be some poetry recital, with some 'well-known' poet reading. Sorry, but I really do not know how to appreciate poetry, esp if the acoustics is bad and with kids screaming in the background. Anyway, there was quite a crowd who respectfully listened to this recital, with the seriousness that it demanded. Roommate was so apologetic about us going down for jazz and getting poetry instead. i dunno. i have mixed feelings about this girl.

Bought a pint of Haagen Daz for USD 2. Super cheap. am going to realy fat. mabbe i'll go to the gym tmr. but i am going to wake up late tmr. we shall see. *sigh* And basically that is one day for me.

Francesca has lent me her ENTIRE music collection which equates to 25 CDs worth of songs. 700MB x 25 = ? omg. i am going to spend alot of time sorting through this. *excited* and w WQ having managed to rip more songs... and Tze who generously shares his songs, I am a HAPPY GIRL.

I should put up a photo with all my friends for u guys to see=)I need to do my papers.

*THere are are total of 3 dining commons (read:Cafeteria)in UCD. Segundo, Oxford Circle and Castilian. Segundo dining commons is like a HUGE foodcourt cept after swiping your card, you are free to wonder around grabbing any plate of food that has been dished out. It makes u wanna eat alot every meal. ITZ SCARY.

Friday, October 21, 2005

Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in; Forget them as soon as you can.Tomorrow is a new day
you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

I didn't say that, Emerson did

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Sobering

My Roommate got into a bike accident. Quite a bad accident. Her lips are all banged up and she lost a tooth. Never would i have wished such a thing on anyone and i am totally shocked beyond words. I don't know what to say to comfort her, I don't know what to do to help her. She looks half dead (who wouldn't?) but is still trying to stay strong and not cry in front of us. She says she needs time alone and does not want to talk to us and I can totally empathtise with that. She refuses to let my other roommate have a look at it. From what I saw, it looks bad. super painful. Knowing that she how much she cares about her face, i can only guess the sheer magnitude of this turn of events. I feel helpless.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

so many things to report, but limited time.

I have successfully screwed up my first midterm. It was so bad. I actually didn't understand what they were asking me to do. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT? And the dictation went horribly. I think if I just pass this Course I'll be happy. Not that it actually matters. Everything will be S/U-ed anyway. *shrug* but I wouldn't wanna big C right? it isn't done!!

I LOVE SAN FRANCISCO!!! Went there over the weekends, saw some of the same landmarks, went to a few new ones, the weather is crazy, itz cold one moment and then i'll have my sweater off the next moment. Went to this beach which was quite near the Golden Gate bridge where I saw the sunset. The interesting thing about the beach is that there is this small little stream in the middle of all the sand and the ocean jsut laps up to it. Stayed in this dingy little hostel which was super cheap and in a good location. The guy at the Front Desk kept trying to crack lame jokes which ALL fell flat coz almost everyone couldn't understand what the hell he was talking about. In a way, it was as if he was mocking us, and yet , maybe not. Anyway my friends got pissed off in the end as he tried to joke too much and took up too much time. hilarious really. They cut him off in the middle of his joke when they went back to collect their bags with a pissed off "Just give us our bags! we need to catch a train" I wasn't there, I was doing some really last min shopping. Went to Haight St which has a great mix of stores. Those type which u can just browse for hours. And the clothes were gorgeous. The funny thing is that they put all the branded clothes out as if they are damn cheap, all squeezed up and all in the racks. and once u pick somehting up itz more than USD 200. The rush of being in San Francisco, shopping, walking, is exhilerating. I didn't feel it the first time, prehaps coz we just walked around the place and never really immersed ourselves inside. This time, I was simply enthralled. All the beautiful pple walking around with great clothes, the tourists, the homeless, it was an interesting mix.

Managed to buy 2 Tops. which was great. and knowing that I'll be back again is a great feeling. It'll be sad when I leave in Dec. Knowing I wouldn't be back for years to come.

Going to another Italian Dinner cooked by Francesca, my Italian friend. Can't wait. I love these dinners we have, and i wish I could do one myself. Any suggestions to what I could cook?

Saturday, October 15, 2005

How do I tell someone not to fart when they are in the same room as me with sounding absolutely anal? I feel like dying coz the silent bombs are lethal and frequent.

UPDATE! I have told her. it was embarrassing.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Funny how i think of blogging all the time but when i get down to it, whatever that I had found interesting is 1)no longer as interesting 2)forgotten.

From what I can remember on my walk to the library.

Plump girls here looks so much better than plump girls back home. I think itz the confidence, eyeliner and clothes. and the fact that they not in the minority (realise I didn't say they were the majority). Clothes actually do look better on some of them as they are more... full bodied.

I am a strange gal. I like to look at LEGS. Saw this girl who i swear has one of the best pair of legs that i've ever seen. long, shapely, smooth, skin the colour of dark chocholate. ok this sounds a little pervy to me. I almost become a legs stalker.

Some people are nice and some people are not. My class on gender has a discussion portion during lectures. today, I met some really nice people who had something substantial to add to the discussion and who wasn't all that uptight about showing that they knew what they were talking about. We had a great conversation although i still get irritated when they think they are giving me a compliment by saying how good my English is (compared to other exchange students where EL is a second language to them. I had a group that wasn't all the friendly last lesson which really got me down. I felt like I was in a group of 'ah lians' who had droopy breasts that they liked to show. So from now on, I will choose where I seat with much care.

I realised that I am noticing guys a lot more than before. or mabbe simply voicing more of my thoughts on them. There's this guy in my Gender class that has this semi dorky intellectual look, piercing eyes, sharp noise and a damn sexy voice. No surprise that he is in the UCD radio club (i dunno whatz itz officially called). SEXY VOICE!!!

Falling behind the classes. What is new? I've always been behind.

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Pissed with... Frege?

The paper was supposed to be DOUBLE SPACED. and inferring from my use of CAPS, I obviously didn't double space my work. PISSED at myself. It wasn't such a hard paper after all

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Done with Frege

DOne! not the best I've written... how can it be if I don't understand what I wrote? A little disappointed here. Yes I like to think that I am brilliant although in reality, I am somewhat mediocre. But this post ISN"T about mediocracy. Itz about... ME! Had dinner at this korean cafe located in downtown Davis. Small unassuming place with affordable good tasting food. It wasn't authentic Korean, but the atmosphere was warm and the owner awfully sweet. I think it has to do with Ryoko breaking the ice by thanking him in Korean. Junko followed up by her thanks and so started the tiny language lesson amidst our planning for the San Francisco trip. The owner then treated us to potstickers (*snicker*) on the house! I mean when do such things happen in S'pore?? and the *snicker* is for the label potstickers. I find it supremely funny. This is one thing I love about America, the interaction, the willingness to talk, smile and to stop for a while amidst the hustle and bustle of life simply to make a stranger feel, just a mite more welcomed.

On a cynical side, the thought just occurred that it is simply good PR skills at play here, but honestly, I don't care. I choose to believe that it comes from the heart.

My funny Spanish tutor

Just had Spanish lessons and one of the exercise was to list a number of descriptions that you wanted in your ideal man/woman (hombre/mujer). So my Spanish tutor, who is called Santiago btw, asked each person to read out one ideal characteristic. So the mujers started with, guapo(handsome), simpatico(nice), inteligente(intelligent), trabajo(hardworking), athelico(atheletic...i forgot how to spell this)... then it was the hombres' turn... and they said...simpatico (nice), sin bigote (without a moustache), atheletico... and my tutor cut in " Sexy? No?" and the guys went silent... then he said "bah! si hombre!... go home!" while rubbing the word 'mujer' off the board...

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Alliteration and Frege

I just realized how unconsciously we alliterate. It amuses. At least at this point in time where I am sitting in the reading room (with high ceilings, large tables and large chairs) attempting to read Frege.

Recent Alliterations used are not really all that poetic... actually they are really crust...like...big boobies? big breasts? oki opai(which means the same thing as the latter), fuck Frege (which precipitated this entry, lesbian lover(which doesn't refer to me), freaking funny... now i wonder... mabbe lynn might be able to help... is fugly an acronym? a compound word? I don't think so. what? i wonder do you call a combination word?

I hate Frege. I hate Frege. I hate Frege.

This is who Frege is:

Friedrich Ludwig Gottlob Frege (November 8, 1848 – July 26, 1925) was a German mathematician, logician, and philosopher who is regarded as a founder of both modern mathematical logic and analytic philosophy.

Frege's life
Frege was born in Wismar. He started studying at the University of Jena in 1869 and moved to Göttingen after two years, where he received his Ph.D. in 1873. After returning to Jena two years later, he became lecturer of mathematics. In 1879, he was made associate professor and in 1896 became professor of mathematics. He died in Bad Kleinen in 1925.

Frege's contributions
Frege is widely regarded as the greatest logician since Aristotle. His revolutionary Begriffsschrift, or Concept Script from 1879 marked the beginning of a new epoch in the history of logic by displacing the old Term Logic that had held sway virtually unchanged since Aristotle. The Begriffsschrift was ground-breaking, and made contributions that are nowadays ubiquitous in mathematics, such as the use of quantification, which solved the medieval problem of multiple generality, and a clean treatment of functions and variables.

Frege was the first to devise an axiomatization of propositional logic and of predicate logic, the latter of which was his own invention. The quantification so essential to Bertrand Russell's theory of descriptions, and to Russell and Alfred North Whitehead's Principia Mathematica, was also due to Frege. His work was largely unrecognized in his own day, and his ideas spread chiefly through those he influenced, particularly Giuseppe Peano and Russell. Ludwig Wittgenstein and Edmund Husserl were among the other philosophical notables strongly influenced by Frege.

Frege is regarded as one of the founding fathers of analytic philosophy, due to his deeply systematic contributions to the philosophy of language, most fundamentally his function-argument analysis of the proposition, his distinction between the sense and reference (Sinn und Bedeutung) of a proper name (Eigenname), the advocacy of a mediated reference theory, his distinction between concept and object (Begriff und Gegenstand), and his advancement of the context principle. He corresponded with many leading logicians and philosophers of his time such as Russell, Peano and Husserl.

Frege was a major proponent of logicism about arithmetic (the view that arithmetic is reducible to logic). His Grundgesetze der Arithmetik was an attempt to explicitly derive the laws of arithmetic from logic. After the first volume was published (at the author's expense), Russell discovered the paradox which bears his name, and that the axioms of the Grundgesetze led to this contradiction; he wrote to Frege, who acknowledged the contradiction in an appendix to volume two of the Grundgesetze, noting what he perceived to be the faulty axiom. Frege never did manage to amend his axioms to his satisfaction, although later work by Russell and by John Von Neumann suggested ways to resolve the problem.

He was also a philosopher of mathematics, who loathed appealing to psychologistic or "mental" explanations for meanings (such as idea theories of meaning). His original purpose was very far from answering questions about meaning -- he wanted to use modern logic to further develop the foundations of arithmetic. He first undertook to answer the question, "what is a number?" or "what objects do number-words ("one", "two", etc.) refer to?". But in pursuing these matters, he was eventually confronted with the task of analysing and explaining what meaning is, and came to several memorable conclusions in that regard.

Despite this, and despite the generosity of Bertrand Russell's praise for Frege, he remained an obscure figure through his lifetime; had it not been for his influence on Wittgenstein-- of whom both major works, the Tractatus and the Philosophical Investigations, revolved around a coming to terms with Frege's ideas about logic and language-- Frege's worth as a philosopher might never have been recognised.

According to Frege, sense and reference are two aspects of the meaning of a linguistic expression. The reference of an expression is simply the object that the expression refers to. The sense of an expression, more controversially, is what provides the cognitive significance of the expression.

I wish he had remained... OBSCURE.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

had a record TWO discussion groups on friday. I think I am getting to know more pple although the uncertainty while getting to know them and standing alone in the doorway, waiting for the previous class to end still remains. It seems as though I have to try SO hard internally to feel less afraid about getting to know people, and simply enjoy talking to people. It's just me I guess. Anyway, one must be optimistic around here. Apparently the message I am giving everyone is that I am not enjoying myself that much over here. Yes, I think I am WAY out of my comfort zone. However, I do have a good time most of the time, if u exclude sch time where I have no one to talk to!. It gets so boring. I have on average about 3 hour breaks between classes and that sucks. Anyway Classes are becoming 'easier' for me as I now realise that the papers that I am supposed to do are so easily finished, ie I know how to do them. Readings on the other hand are killers here. I think it's coz I hardly do my readings till the last min.

Went for Semantics class and met this Korean gal called Lana who is also an exchange student. YAY!! and lives one floor below me! So I'll have someone to go home with on Fridays. Met another gal Lara who introduced herself and was so nice as to give us her tel phone no just in case we needed help. I think she thinks we are absolutely helpless around here as she (i think) assumes that both of us do not speak much EL. that is the MOST common misconception here. That I don't speak EL as my native language. SOmetimes I just want to put up a sign that says " Yes I SPEAK EL as well as you do! But ur accent's more prestigious" *shrugs* Did a little exploration of the Shield's library which is like our central library- it is the central library in UCD. It's 4 storeys high with a basement and they are all COMPLETELY filled with books. While our main collection (A-Z) fills 1 floor, here it fills 4.5 floors. with just enough space at the sides for tables. Simply magnificient. Found the little (actually quite large) nooks and corners around the library where I can go study. One observation. Asians or anyone who has a drop of Asian blood in them are the pple you find majority of the time in the library. papers, tests ar approaching with every week have 1 or 2 of them. However, I refuse to allow them to affect my weekends which is the only time I will get to go play.

Went for dinner alone AGAIN and had to walk through this park to get to the Dining Commons. This park although small, is absolutely beautiful in that it has a large field which the guys use for soccer, freesbie, rugby. The sky overhead is either blue with gauzey candy floss clouds, pink when the sun is setting or just pitch black with the myraids of twinkling stars that seem to wink at you each time you stare hard enough. I will take a photo of it. The thing is, I don't have time to put it up online as I am in sch till evenings on most days. Time to get ready. I'm on my way to Sacramento!

Friday, October 07, 2005

What I did today

I woke up at 7. I wake at 7 EVERYDAY. I had Spanish lessons at 8. I have Spanish lessons EVERY WEEKDAY at 8. I went to the lounge and sat there and read. Tried to smoke my way though my second assignment. Went for bowling class. I suck at bowling. I dropped my bowling class. I went for my Gender class. I met a gal called Martha. Who I found out, was an exchange student. From Spain. I have a new friend. Gender was interesting. We talked about how gendered our world has become and how, other factors beside gender affect how we act or 'perform'. Went back to the lounge after that and did my readings. Fell asleep. Met a friend. Went for my next class at 1640 which was anthropology linguistics. I learnt about sound. Something I had already learnt previously. However, the revision was interesting. Met June and we walked to the International House and met the other International Students. Made a few new friends. This Italian guy called Alessandro, Ale (pronounce Ali) had the most WONDERFUL eyes. Dark intense plus eye contact all the way. Sharp nose. Not the typical Italian guy really, he looks a little Indian really. However, incredible eyes incredible eyelashes. Met this American who stayed in S'pore for 14 yrs, ie S'porean gal with american citizenship. Great to talk to someone from S'pore. really. Met this other guy called Matt who went on exchange to Argentina, who wants to visit S'pore. For one, he has heard of Singapore. for two, he actually knows a little about it. So WELCOME TO S:PORE (although he is not going to read this) Was one of the last to leave the party. Walked home. Saw this gal who was swinging/performing with those fire one the string thingys in the park. Looked up and saw SO many stars. Not as clear as Cambodia but definitely something Singapore doesn't have. Had a talk with roomie housemate n another gal and now i start at 10 .30 pm, my homework.

Homework. THEY HAVE HOMEWORK. I have to hand in progress reports, key quotes, exercises that I do as assignment. Everything I do, I have to hand in. NUS Profs really do have a good time. Feel tired often nowadays. I think it has to do with the fact that during the school hours, I have nothing to look forward to. I feel as though I am the observer, the outsider.

Oh on sat we'll be going down to Sacramento. and might just visit a strip club. ?? coz i've a friend whoz housemate is bringing her bro who is turning 18, to a strip club. Unfortunately, since itz for a guy, itz gonna be a gal strip club. SHould I spend USD 20 on that?????

Monday, October 03, 2005

Anaranjado

jo mi gusta anaranjado.